DOT 2.0

Definition of Terms 2.0




Happiness - happiness is ninety-eight percent intention and one percent reality...










care to share yours?

The Best Medicine

.....

Many times we’ve seen movies that made us rolled on the floor for laughing. But in the end, under the same screen, we find ourselves back in tears again. Yet, we call this the best medicine – the tendency to break away from reality and immerse ourselves under the blanket of laughter. Pretty deceiving, huh? However, if it is the only way we know on how not to concern others, why not cloak ourselves under it until they can no longer heed the pain.

True to what they say, laughter is not the best medicine. Sometimes, it’s just the best disguise we learned just to fit in…

I Hate Volleyball

Here's the only reason why I love watching volleyball games.

And her bunny-hop technique.

But what the hell, for all people, why she's the one who got injured...

Damn! I hate volleyball..

Thankful vs Happy

The other night, me and my old buddy had a short IM conversation. The usual hi and hellos. We're both busy that's why we did not actually intend to chat that night. Then all of a sudden, a question popped-out of my frigid mind. Here's my archive:

Lj: hey, i got a question...
Drs: yeah, what's up...
Lj: which would you prefer..?
Lj: someone is thankful because of you...
Lj: or someone is happy because of you...
Drs: can i pick both..?
Lj: nope, you've got to choose one...
Drs: hmmm...
Drs: when we say thankful, it could mean that the person is happy, right..?
Drs: it could be a package...
Drs: do you feel thankful of something but your not happy..?
Drs: get it..?
Drs: we're grateful because we're glad or happy...
Drs: or appreciative...
Drs: but when we say happy..it could be we're just happy...
Drs: without any appreciation...
Drs: i mean...yeah, happy...period...
Drs: hmmm...i don't know..
Drs: but ill go for the thankful thingy...
Drs: why you're asking..?
Lj: ahhh...nothing...just nothing...
Drs: we can always say that we're happy, right..?
Drs: it's too much of a cliche...
Drs: but when we say I'm thankful, it has FOR ME, a much deeper meaning...
Drs: still i don't know...
Drs: maybe case to case basis...
Lj: hmmm...
Drs: it depends maybe on the way the person said that...
Drs: it depends on the situation...the facial expression...
Drs: too many things, right..?
Lj: yup...
Drs: why you're asking..?
Lj: just nothing...
Drs: huh..?
Lj: it just entered my mind...
Lj: ok, now, let us put that in a sentence...
Lj: "I'm thankful because of you" or...
Lj: "I'm thankful because I have you" versus...
Lj: "I'm happy because of you"...
Lj: now, which has a deeper meaning..?
Drs: it definitely has different meanings...
Drs: deeper..?
Drs: "thankful because I have you"...
Drs: thankful because I'm happy to have you ...
Drs: this one...
Drs: its not "i'm happy because i'm thankful to have you"...
Drs: right..?
Lj: um mm...
Drs: i think it's a matter of knowing what's the reason of that person being happy and being thankful...
Drs: that's whats important...
Drs: if you're interested in deeper meaning..?
Drs: what you think..?
Lj: hmmm..i don't know...
Lj: I feel like...
Lj: or i prefer that HAPPY over thankful...
Drs: why..?
Lj: thats just me...
Lj: or maybe because...
Lj: we can say to anyone the word "i'm thankful"...
Lj: but not the "i'm happy" thing...
Lj: it could be, we tend to pick certain people...
Lj: or it could be probably one person...
Lj: just my thought...
Lj: try asking your seatmate there in your office...
Drs: hmmm, okay...
Lj: hey...
Drs: yeah...
Lj: i got another question...
Drs: okay...
Drs: shoot..!


I'll cut it here... i am waiting for the next question to crack out of my head...

DOT 1.0

Definition of Terms 1.0


Special - Someone you'll never forget for the rest of your life...






Important - Someone you need for the rest of your life...





'nuff said

LSS: 3 AM

She says baby
It's 3 am I must be lonely
When she says baby
Well I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes
Says the rain's gonna wash away I believe it




I got a floating head right now..wasn't able to get ample sleep last night..can't write..i'll just sing and sleep to that...

Dalia 11.07.07

Dalia. The Darling of the Crowd. We all love her because she never fails to put a smile on our hearts.
Dalia. The Loving Child. She always thinks of her family no matter what. A trait every parent would want from their child.
Dalia. The Beautiful Mom. Francis is very lucky kid as well as Fits. One Happy Family. Thanks for making me a godfather to your child. n_n
Dalia. The Crazy Beautiful. There's no dull moment with her. Life's full of adventure and laughter with this crazy-slash-stupid girl.
Dalia. The Rock Chick. The celebrity skin. The real deal. Damn! I miss our jam sessions. I miss going to your house too. Damn!
Dalia. The Best Bud. Need I say more? Cheers to the friendliest gal on earth.



Happy Birthday Dahleeeiyah! This is my gift for you. heheh

Karu's Requiem II

As the hunt of bareness will soon increase again
And times of yore shall blind our minds that failed
For we shall ask 'what have become of us?'
Because not long for sure our paths will cross again;
We have traveled boundless journeys,
But never came a way that will leave us astray;
They witnessed how two planes crash and burn,
But never did they saw why our hearts long to stay;
Was it a simple notion of fate?
Of how the bridge of chance has been built,
Of how red apples fall into the ground as set,
Of how bemused emotions turned into gray;
Irrelevant enterprises heave your body's strength
Flowing rain have cleansed your hearts that wearing thin
Numerous nights have conquered your soul's pain
For these were all in the same manner of hanging on with nil
And when it all comes back to the souring end
Unconsciously, you will find yourself at the very same bend;
The moments of great denials have come to the grave,
And the only shadow that binds us leaves us no regret,
True, time consumes the fire within
And depart our core with freezing veins
Yet, we are still..
Could it be another twist of fate?
Could it be another lack of faith?
Discerning what had come our way,
Bleeding but trying to nurse the pain,
Bleeding but still wanting to go on this mean,
Bleeding and yet still wanting..
Tell me this isn't the last time we'll be writing,
Tell me we have come here to wait for that spring
Say a word or three, and break the silence we have long endured,
Say something that will unlock everything;
For what destiny brings forth, we'll always be the same, always we'll remain..
And if you cannot use you heart nor eyes to navigate that page again
I'll offer mine though it can feel no longer pain
For your smile will be my only ticket to heaven
Until then..




P.S.
Written midyear of 2006...I lost my original transcript, luckily i was able to save this on my other blog.

The SoundTrack Vol. 1

Here's my soundtrack as of the moment:

• Opening Credits - Canon in D by Pachelbel (piano/violin version)
• Waking Up Scene - Vertigo by U2 (uno, dos, tres, katorse)
• Car Driving Scene - My Favorite Game by The Cardigans
• HighSchool Flashback Scene - High by Lighthouse Family
• Nostalgic Scene - Somewhere Only We Know by Keane
• Bitter/Angry Scene - Not Ready To Make Nice by Dixie Chicks
• Break-up Scene - Goodbye My Lover by James Blunt
• Regret Scene - Bad Day by Daniel Powter
• Nightclub/Bar Scene - Makes Me Wonder by Maroon 5
• Fight/Action Scene - How Far We've Come by Matchbox Twenty
• Lawn Mowing Scene - Stolen by Dashboard Confessional
• Sad/Breakdown Scene - Fix You by Coldplay
• Death Scene - If God Would Send His Angels by U2
• Funeral Scene - Angel by Sarah McLachlan
• Mellow Scene - You Belong To Me by Lifehouse

• Dreaming About Someone Scene - Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol
• Sex Scene - zzzzzZZZZZzzzz
• Contemplation Scene - Never Saw Blue Like That by Shawn Colvin
• Chase Scene - Rollin' by Limp Bizkit
• Happy Love Scene - Friday, I'm In Love by Dryden Mitchell
• Happy Friend Scene - End Of The World As We Know It by R.E.M.
• Closing Credits - Shinny Red Balloon by Barbie's Cradle

Karu's Requiem

The road appears endless as you take your every step;
Tell me, what are you willing to give up to make it to the end..?
The skies turn red as they shed their tears,
The wind sobs and howls with grief,
The waters of the vast seas thrash their misery on those dark rocks beside them;
Time, itself, can heal your wounds no more;
With every breath you take, you lose your precious memories,
Slowly draining away into nothingness and isolation;
Tell me, can you still stand up the way you did before you fell..?
Countless dreams made their presence felt to you,
But they are only dreams, no matter how real they reveal themselves;
You travel the expanse of dark mountains and vast savannas;
You search for something to appease your poor soul;
The distant stars of the unmoving sky are the witnesses of your journey,
Yes, you are alone, with no one to heave your weary spirit onto the right trail whenever you make a careless fall,
Your sole companion is solitude itself;
Tell me, would you realize the emptiness of the horizon above you..?
Everything in your path is filled with an abysmal mystery,
Of false pretenses, of hidden lies and betrayals…
Why…why would you still want to subdue your life’s cavalries..?
What reason should be strong enough for you to move on with this almost pointless quest..?
Tell me, for I am fill of bemused emotions;
The warmth around you is wavering,
Yet you still believe the cold is an illusion;
Please…tell me you are tired…
Tell me you seek refuge from those innumerable thorns,
For I shall take you in my arms to shield you from your woes;
And wounded I might become, it does not matter to me anyway…
For those thorns may prick and leave me with deep scars,
But glad I will still be, for those thorns failed too conquer you;
I vow to protect your only remaining spirit…
Tell me, before I travel to the heavens, would you bring back the flame
which you’ve promised not to lose..?
Time, indeed, heals wounds no more…
Scars could bring back memories, but memories they will only be;
I have dreamt my last,
The crimson tears have come forth;
Tell me, before my sun sets, will I be in your heart forever…?

P.S.
Such emotions. If there's one thing I'm proud about this madness, is that I gave its temporary title "Karu's Requiem". A couple of years ago, a young friend of mine named Karu or Akuro (Carolyn Cambare in real world) wrote this bemusing work of sadness. I asked her what inspired her, she just said that she was carried by my emotions and stories that time. Huh? Do I really get that emotional? Maybe...just maybe.

I read her journal and her other writings, all I can say, she's a great young writer - taking everything out of her pure heart.

More than a year ago, I have written "Karu's Requiem II" but still nothing beats the first one. It was some months ago when I started writing the third part, but due to unknown reasons, I was not able to complete it. Middle of the way, I got stuck. Maybe I'll let her finish my poem, maybe...

Fire Sale

Sometimes I wish that life is just a fire sale idea, just like in the flick live free or die hard. That when we hit the dead end, we go back to start again. That we can restore everything after destroying everything. That in similarity, after a computer malfunction, we just hit the reset button and everything will be back to normal again. That the only way to rebuild it is to start from the scratch. That what we build for many years can be rearrange according to our longing so we will feel better and feel new again. But this is not just a scheme, this is real life. We deal with real people here with unbound emotions. Sometimes that what makes it difficult - is that we never know where to begin. That where we end is not just the start of the new beginning.

Life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

I am not making any sense here. I know. I'm currently in an old town where everything is in tranquil. I should be sleeping.

The Law of Recognition

The Law of Recognition
by Mike Murdock

Everything you need is already in your life, merely awaiting your recognition of it. Anything unrecognized remains uncelebrated by you. Anything you refuse to celebrate eventually exits your life. A gift...a miracle...a person.


(I haven't read the book itself that's why it would be very hard to get the context of what he's trying to say. So let's just say, I have a copy and I was able to dissect one.)

Bottom line, at the end of the day, we all wish to be recognized because we never intend to disappear in that person's life.

LSS: How Far We've Come

I'm waking up at the start of the end of the world,
but its feeling just like every other morning before,
Now I wonder what my life is going to mean if it's gone,

The cars are moving like a half a mile an hour and I
and started staring at the passengers who're waving goodbye
can you tell me what was ever really special about me all this time?

But I believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well I guess we're gonna find out
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
oh well, I guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

I think it turned ten o'clock but I don't really know
then I can't remember caring for an hour or so
started crying and I couldn't stop myself
I started running but there's no where to run to
I sat down on the street, took a look at myself
said where you going man you know the world is headed for hell
say all goodbyes if you've got someone you can say goodbye to

I believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well I guess we're gonna find out
let's see how far we've come (right now)
let's see how far we've come

Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
oh well, I guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

Its gone gone baby its all gone
there is no one on the corner and there's no one at home
well it was cool cool, it was just all cool
now it's over for me and it's over for you
well its gone gone baby its all gone
there's no one on the corner and there's no one at home
well it was cool cool, it was just all cool
now it's over for me and it's over for you

I believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well I guess we're gonna find out
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
oh well, i guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've come, again
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

The return of Matchbox Twenty...such an anthem! When i first heard this song, I never thought it was MB20. This is the best song therapy for those who are down and dumb. Of course, we can interpret this in many different ways, but surely, they kicked ass.